I just had one of the worst days, I literally want to rip all the hair out of my head and explode like cheap confetti.... But enough about family, more important things to think about.
I'm thinking about deleting this account and going off DA altogether, Since I started this account I developed art block, a mean ugly case of it that wraps around my head like a cheap hat and squeezes my brain, I bash my head on it, trip over it, drag it around like a ball n'chain... you get the idea. I'll go to any length to get rid of it. I don't know if DA is connected but, hell I'll try anything to break through this bloody wall and free myself.
Meanwhile, work on the comic has reached a stand still, (not that it was going but you get me) any momentum has come to a screeching halt. I'd blame it on the wall but there is only so much I can blame on i- NO, no scratch that it's the bloody wall, the big fat ugly bloody thing staring me in the face. *throws rock at it* The best thing I can do is get off of DA, (once my premium runs out) and then find a new place to relax for a bit. I think DA has too many memories for me, I've run out of ideas as to why I'm stuck...
P.S. Lue, if you're reading this, if you are out there, just know I love you, I miss you, I wish things had not happened like this. I'm so very sorry. I'm sorry... I hope wherever you are, that you are happy. You were one of the best parts of myself, I feel so lost without you.
P.s.s. Do NOT tell me "I can do it" or "keep you're chin up" like a ruddy hallmark special, I will stab you with boomer bile... Real advice would ground breaking, I know some people get horrific art block, maybe someone has some advice? Meditation and forcing it dosen't work for me.